Sometimes everythings is ruining my life.Even,twitter,facebook and what so on.I just wonder,why everybody said that i was ego,never appreciate them and stubborn.I dont think so.I just never mind about what they'd said,and im just '' Do i care?'' .I find it rude sometimes.Okay i want to talk about someone Maybe it's all my fault,i gave him hope but im truly doesnt mean it.I am a little girl who's easily changed her feelings .On that day(i really didnt remember what's day it is),my twin and her friend suddenly invited me to join them-having lunch ain KFC and i cant refuse because nobody will pick me from school and i had to return home by bus.And the worst part is i have to meet (face to face) with my ex,I hate him because he make me embrassed in public.But what can i do, and from there i met this person for the first time.Days after the lunch,my sis said that he likes me.And i dont think so.I just gave him hope,i said to him that i love him so but im truly not.I just feel in love just for a few moments.And one day, i found him talking bad about me .i still remember what he'd said.''She acts like a queen and everybody is her loyal servants''.I really awake.This words are full of pains.Its tell me that who truly i am.First-The queen.yeah,i act like an arrogant queen who's able to direct other ppl because of my power and i didnt mind other ppl pain.Next-loyal servants.Everybody arounds me is a loyal servants.They seem like the ppl who had been forced to do somethings that they really unwilling to do.And if they try to refuse or betray the queen,only then they will get hurts.*I dont know and im getting mad because of those words.I never thingking about the truly meaning of it.What's on my mind is just-''he talking bad about me !it cant be accepted,how dare him !'' Then the war begun.i getting mad for more than 3 days and i'd read a twitt -Those who are getting mad for more than 3 days towards their love one's are not really in love and maybe doesnt have any feeling for them''.STUCKS.Nah,from there,i know that i truly not in love with him.,but how i can explain to him,im just let it be.I dont know why he said i am the one who is not appreciating other people.He likes to buy everythings for me, i dont ask him to do so.I dont want people to say -''She is really materialistic''.Im just tired to say''not u dont have to buy anything for me,it's just lossing your money''.But he only said''its ok its ok its ok'' and i did say thank you .And i dont know,which part of me telling that im not appreciate him.I appreciate it.Maybe he glad to buy those things because he thinks taht im gonna get back.No.Money cant buy everythings in this world especially feelings.Perhaps because i dont want to get back ,he said that im not aprreciate him.Whatever.Recently,i'd tweeted about myself on twitter.i admit that i ego,etc.But i realise he tried to show off and act like''Hahah u are a looser'' and now deserve anythings that u have to deserve'' .And you know what,im getting mad immediately and bashing him.I feel like''Eh kau ni apesal ? beserabut gile? nak gaduh cakap ah''tak payah buat ayat mintak kaki''.if i can tweet like this,oh my .my life gonna be perfect !Ergh i hate his words ! So much.Why we meet and why i know you and the act like a stranger ? I feel like you told your friends about me and they react like im the only person who's bad and y attitudes like a witch ! Im so embrassed.im wearing no face on it.i just sad.im a the one who's totally wrong and useless and have bad attitudes and nobody shouldn't know me .I feel like i should live alone and let other people avoiding me.I should do that but i cant.Hahaah maybe im just 15 and i have to learn more and i have to study first !!!! Come on,i can survive without those peoples lei ,i am my parents' child and im a legend hahahah .I will get someone better than him.Oh maybe have same bad attitudes like me ,it will be truly amazing !!!We can getting hirt together and i think we will face no pain at all!because we are same!!Hahahah im glad to hear this words ! :D :D :D
Sincerely,
S.N.A.
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